its not my fault that i want to have it all with you

it's been a very weird day. not at all like i expected it to be. instead of hyper, excited, go go go tamara... i turned into slow, fatigued, bored, unmotivated tamara. whether it was my aching arm, my disappointing pay check, getting verbally attacked for no reason, or pms... something made my whole afternoon pretty crappy. deep down inside i am really excited for camp. my nerves probably got the best of me, resulting in nausea that lasted a few hours... no fun. it's been a very weird day, indeed. 

but now i feel better. still a bit tired, but ready to finish packing completely, finish my book (cross your fingers), and attempt to clean a little bit so that my room isn't a complete wreck when i return. yeah, we'll see about that last one. 

really though, i am looking forward to being up at camp this summer. being with bobby will be... wonderful. i won't have to the long distance summer i always have to do. and i'll be experiencing something that he loves. it'll bring us closer together, i'm sure of it. i think i'll have trouble calling him by his name though. you know, like in front of campers and staff. i'll be like, "hey baby... i mean... bobby..." 

my flight leaves at 5:30am tomorrow morning so i'm going to try and go to bed early tonight. not sure that'll happen, but i guess that means i should go finish everything i need to do!