"i was just talking about you!"
"oh really? to who and what were you saying?"
"i was talking to steph and telling her how much i miss you.. and how hard this summer is.."
"... it's been two days."
i'm blaming pms for my incredibly strong emotions the past.... well i'd like to say 2 weeks, but i'll go with the probable number of 4 days. constantly on the verge of tears, i've had this overwhelming feeling of loss. even though i'm going to boston at the end of this month, i still worry myself with what will happen after the 30th. he'll be gone to camp and in his own words, won't really have time to think about me. (except for in the morning and at night, which covers his behind because if he flat out said he basically wasn't going to miss me for 2 and a half months i would have had a few choice words with him.... mostly muffled by my inevitable sobs..) so yeah, that kind of hurt. because i know its kind of true. guys and girls are different. guys can take their mind off of things by occupying their thoughts with sports or food or whatever else they choose. girls... not so much. if we are thinking about something, that's ALL we can think about. at least, i hope i'm not the only one who is consumed by her thoughts. but it all boils down to... even if i occupy every minute of everyday... i'm still going to think of nothing but him... what's he doing.. when will i hear from him next.. i'm pathetic. i know. but apparently in my case, pathetic is synonymous with being in love. sigh. what can i do?
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